Alone in the dark.
It’s quiet and peaceful. My mind wonders and starts racing with thoughts. What’s happening in my life? Am I becoming subject to society and becoming the one thing I did not want to be? I live life not knowing about tomorrow and some say that’s bad but with all the times the future has completely changed from my plans and fucked me over it’s hard to think of the future. Honestly I don’t even know for sure what’s even going on in my life right at this moment. The world moves quickly as I move slow. I feel as if I was at a stand still and everything around just going by so fast! Now a days people don’t take the time to stop and breathe and see what’s around them. Am I the only person that isn’t so caught up in what’s happening tomorrow and yesterday but being thankful I’m here another day and just living free within my life and just trying to be happy with everything I have. I’m just trying to make it out still knowing who I am. Being alone has taught me a lot about myself and of others but being too alone all the time is not becoming so nice. I crave touch and affection… people don’t see what goes on in my mind, I paint a picture so well that sometimes I fool myself. Deep down I love myself and I make sure I love myself more than anyone in the world can. I just …. Need something to happen.